Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Day 18 After Switch On: Patience Is Required!

I have been a bad blogger!  An update is long overdue.  I apologize for that.  To be honest, I have been waiting to feel more positive about things, so that I did not sound like a negative, ungrateful complainer.   Everyone has been so wonderful and supportive.  They hold high hopes and expectations for me, and want me to achieve my hearing goals.  I feel like I would be disappointing them if I reported the reality of my experience these last 18 days.  I really wanted to be able to share uplifting, miraculous accomplishments, like : "I had my first phone conversation!", "I could understand the radio in the car!" or "I could understand you without lip reading!" and so on...

What I need to be telling myself - OFTEN!

Don't get me wrong.  I am doing okay.  The CI seems to be operational, and doing what it is supposed to do.  I am thankful for that.  I am sitting outside writing this post and can hear the birds chirping, someone hammering a few houses away, and my cats meowing at the window.  That is pretty miraculous in itself.  But I am still not able to understand speech without lip reading.  Words and sentences are like unintelligible blobs of sound - I can hear the voice, but comprehension seems unreachable, no matter how hard I try.  Too bad the CI did not come with an autocorrect feature like the iPhone! :)